The potential was always missed in places that are too familiar. All the cups of coffee that I drink to avoid wasting my mornings half-asleep. All the pills that I take to avoid wasting my nights half-awake. All the calculations of whether I really seized my energy, if it comes.
I chose travel, so that even if I worry about my present and my future, I would be comfortably far from my past.
But it’s the same.
I miss my past, until the new place becomes familiar. Then I realize it’s the same.
I write again in my crowded notebook. In a new language, but along the same lines. I have not seized the potential, if there’s any, in two different countries.
I should have never travelled, and the potential should have always remained not fully explored. So that it gives reason to avoid wasting everyday half-awake and half-asleep.
So that one could always say: “There is potential for things to be generally better in the future as a result of some of my actions.”