The memory of you, and a long night

Sleep does not tempt a heart whose ailment was longing.
The night is long, and I can think of you for eternity.
And if I silence my thoughts, I would still hear my heart knocking rapidly on a door that will never open.

I remember that after the word was said and the decision was made, I wondered why the sun should rise. Why rain should fall. Why plants should grow.
I wished that planets would collide, and the whole universe would fall into chaos.

Oh heart: die or beat slower. Let us rest either forever, or for tonight.